A Letter to My First Born: The One Who Made Me a Mother

by Kimberly | Jun 26, 2018 | lifestyle, motherhood

To the little girl who stole my heart for the first time,

Growing up if anyone would ask me “What do you want to be when you grow up?” my answer would be “A teacher” and when they asked for a “Plan B” my answer would be “A Mother.” It was in me, being a mom was a part of me. I dreamed of having one child, and it being a little girl. A little girl that would be my best friend, who would trust me with the world, and would have the relationship that I have with Abuela. I dreamed of having a college degree, being married, and sharing the joy of being a parent with my husband.

On February 9th, 2015 I found out I was pregnant with you. You caught me by surprise. I was a sophomore in college, I wasn’t married, and although I was head over heels with your dad, we had only been dating a year and he was about to graduate. In my head, it was the wrong time. How could a child (me) take care of another child? I was pursuing my Bachelor’s and since I was only a sophomore, I had no idea what life had planned for me. In my heart? My dream was being fulfilled, life had planned for me to be a Mother. If we are honest princess.. I cried. I cried for months. I cried until I was 6 months pregnant. Why? I was scared, i was selfish, I knew I wanted to be your mother it just wasn’t the right time (in my head), I was young, I had no real career…yet. I was a college student, I was terrified of being your mama.

A blessing in disguise, thats what you were my angel.

 

On October 15, 2015 two days before my 21st birthday I welcomed you into the world. It all clicked, you were made for me, and I was made for you/ You changed my life forever in the best way possible. You have not only made a mother, you have made me selfless. I love watching you grow up. The way you evolve on a daily basis, like crawling, walking, hearing you say dada, mama, and now hearing you say 3-4 word sentences. You have been the gift of a lifetime. I absolutely love hearing you say “mommy” with a smile on your face, even though you don’t need anything from me. I love spending time with you, our cuddles, your dance moves, and everything about you. You have been the most perfect addition into my life from the moment I held you in my arms, without you life would be incomplete. You complete me. You make me a better person.

Baby girl I haven’t always had the answers to everything and I will probably never have all the answers. However, if one thing is for sure you can always count on me. I may not always allow you to go out, you may not always get to sleep over your friend’s house, I may be the overbearing mom who wants to know every move you make, and we may agree to disagree on certain things or everything, however, always know that you can always count on me. Everything i do is for you.

If there is anything that I can teach you that you’ll hold on to forever, I want you to learn to always be yourself and love yourself for who you are. Birds of a feather don’t always flock together, and you should be Alyssa Simone no matter who stands beside you. Life can get ugly and it can be cruel but there is nothing in this world that can change the beautiful girl that you are. You are everything mommy and daddy have always wanted, and there is nothing about you we would change & there is nothing about you, YOU should ever want to change.

In a short 15 weeks, you’ll be a big sister to a little sister. It won’t just be me, and you (and daddy), we will be a family of four now. I want you to know that my love for you will only get stronger but it will NEVER decrease. You’ll have to share my attention, and my time, but you’ll forever be mommy’s princess and little girl. It doesn’t mean mommy loves you less. I hope that even though you don’t understand that right away, that one day you will. I can’t wait to see you be a big sister, l know you’ll love her, care for her and nurture her. You are the most caring two year old I know, and you’ll love the “baby” (as you call her).

Love,

Your mama

52 Comments

  1. Becca Talbot

    This is such a lovely, emotional, heartfelt post. I really hope in years to come, when she’s old enough to read this and understand it, it’s still on the internet for her 🙂 good luck with the rest of your pregnancy x

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    • admin

      Thank you! Means so much! I plan to save it for her on paper just Incase 💕

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  2. Tara

    What a sweet letter to your first daughter. I am sure she will treasure this always. Congratulations on your second on the way.

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    • admin

      Thank you so much! 💕

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  3. Erin Sluka

    I have written such letters in my son’s keepsake box. They are there for him to uncover one day-love it

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    • admin

      Aww that’s definitely sweet.

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  4. Anna

    What a lovely letter to your little girl! I am sure she will love to read this once she is older. Congratulations on your pregnancy!

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    • admin

      Thank you!

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  5. Mary

    I so enjoyed reading this as it is filled with much love! Enjoy your time with your precious daughter!

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    • admin

      Thank you!

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  6. Marcie

    That transition from 1 to 2 is huge! Enjoy this solo time with your oldest!

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    • admin

      Thank you so much! I am definitely trying ❤️

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  7. Kristi Ann

    This is so sweet!! I know how you feel with soon bringing a second baby, but there will just be more love to go around and she will be a happy big sister!

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    • Kimberly

      Thank you so much 💕 I’m definitely nervous!

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  8. mj

    This is so touching and sweet! The photos are so precious. What a blessing to expand your family. Congrats and best wishes!

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    • admin

      Thank you!

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  9. Sara Welch

    She is such an amazing girl. It is so amazing how much they can change our lives.

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    • admin

      She definitely is amazing, and you’re so right. There’s nothing like being a mom 💕

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  10. Jean Exum Sauban

    That was a really selfless and courageous decision you made as a sophomore in college. I admire that. And that’s a really moving letter to your first born. Such a sweet post!

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    • admin

      Thank you 💕

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  11. Sarah Muoio

    Love this post! Brought tears to my eyes. Hope the transition goes well for all!

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    • admin

      Thank you so much 💕

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  12. Heather

    I love reading this. It’s something she will read when she’s a grown up and it will mean so much to her. I’ve done something similar with my kids as well.

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    • admin

      Aww thank you! ❤️ I hope your kids cherish it 💕

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  13. Jaci

    I enjoyed this so much. It is beautiful how you articulated your words and were able to curate such a heartfelt post. I am sure your baby girl will love to read this when she is older especially. Wonderful writing.

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    • admin

      Thank you so much I appreciate your kind words 💕❤️

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  14. LavandaMichelle

    Aw, what a sweet post! I had the biggest grin on my face while reading it. I always get so excited proud for other parents and there kids. Thanks for sharing! 🙂

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    • admin

      Thank you 💕

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  15. Amy

    I loved this! Thank you so much for sharing such a sweet, tender letter. I love and affirm the writing that comes from your vulnerable youth. I don’t know you, but I can tell that you have had to grow up quickly in ways that have made you a beautiful you. Right where you are. Living the messy, wonderful motherhood journey. Congrats on baby #2. Your little #1 will always be special and now you will have the special joy of being a family filled with even more joy together.

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    • admin

      You have no idea how much your words are appreciated! It’s been a journey full of obstacles but it’s been a journey worth wild, one I would never replace 💕 thank you so much!

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  16. Evelyn, PathofPresence

    This is such a beautiful letter. I love the tone and sentiment of your soul and thebdentle nature of your heart. Thank you for inspiring me to write mine as well.❤️🙏🏼

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    • admin

      Thank you so much! Please share you letter can’t wait to read it!

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    • admin

      I hope so! Thank you ❤️

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  17. WhatLauraLoves

    Oh wow what an unbelievably beautiful post. I hope to become a mam in the next year or two! xxx

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    • admin

      Aww!! You’ll love the journey ❤️❤️ thank you!

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  18. Kristy Bullard

    Such a sweet letter! I really miss my kiddos being this little!

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    • admin

      Thank you so much! I dread every year that she gets older!

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  19. tif

    this is beautiful, and so special and precious and my gosh it was so sweet. I can’t stop smiling over it. I need to do this with every kid i have! such a great idea!!

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    • admin

      Thank you so much! Yes definitely do, it’s something you’ll cherish forever!

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  20. Trina

    This is so special! I absolutely love it. Now I am thinking about writing a letter to my son (first born) as he is becoming a teenager.

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    • admin

      Awww! You definitely should!

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    • Kimberly

      Thank you!
      Yes you should, it’s a great to have as a memory.

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  21. What Corinne Did

    aww this is such an adorable post! Such a beautiful letter! Such a good idea also! When i have a baby, i will write a letter for when he or she is older!

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    • Kimberly

      You definitely should! thank you!

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  22. Ada

    This is so sweet! I’m sure you are an amazing mother to your baby and she will love you unconditionally as you love her!

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  23. Tiffany

    Such a beautiful letter. I love writing letters and moments to my children. I think it’s such an amazing way to capture a moment in time and make it a memory for them when they’re older. So lovely!

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  24. Gerome of G&D Blog

    Great words to hear from a mom like you. And it’s surprising to know that you’re going to have another girl! Congratulations! Sending hugs and kisses to all of you. Bless all your hearts.

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    • Kimberly

      Thank You so much!

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  25. Yeah Lifestyle

    Such a beautiful and heartfelt letter to your daughter, its wonderful to see your love shine through this post. Your daughter is so lucky to have you.

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  26. MS//Mommy

    Our firstborns are so special because they teach us so much about ourselves. I am truly lucky with my firstborn – not only is he amazing company, but he’s inspirational. You’re so lucky to be blessed with your beautiful little one.

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Meet Kimberly

Mama of 2 sweet girls; Alyssa + Aaliyah, and wife to her college sweetheart; Anthony. Lover of all thinks pink & girly. Kim graduated with her BA from FSU #nolenation and is currently pursuing her Masters Degree in Education. Kimberly shares about her motherhood experience + everyday lifestyle.

If she isn’t at home with her husband + babies, she’s probably at Target.

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